Growing up is hard to do. Making your own life decisions is tricky. Why can't I be as confident about things as my parents always are??
I'm about to embark on the biggest life decision/change/adventure I've EVER had. At least, that I've ever made for myself!
And while I'm equal parts crazy excited and terrified out of my mind, the hardest thing for me is realizing things will never, ever be the same. Yeah, I'll still be friends with people and Kansas City will hopefully always be here (Hey, weird things happen! Ever hear of a little city called Atlantis?), the dynamics will change drastically. Although, they would've changed anyways because everyone seems to be getting married and/or having kids…
I'll be honest, one of my biggest fears about moving to a different city is finding things. No, not finding my way around; I have an excellent sense of direction…and by that, I mean I have a gps. I don't want to have to find my new favorite grocery store, theater, gas station, route for running, book store, or place to go to relax. I don't want to have to find a new church. I don't want to make new friends…okay, I'm not so against that. I love meeting new people! But what I'm trying to say is: I already have all those things: I just want to bring them with me! COME ON!
But that's the thing about growing up. People change. Things change. No matter what, change is always creeping up on us. It's creepy like that. And really, it's only through change that we grow and mature and find out who we are. If it weren't for changing and growing up, I'd still be the pastor's kid who smuggles frogs into church in her purse!
So in the end, change is good…but it's such a pain, that I don't like it. Not at first, anyways.
Oh, and a couple fun facts about Lake Charles:
First the bad news - Ever see The Princess and the Frog? I have. Unfortunately, that's not what Louisiana is really like. People don't walk around singing while wearing their finest clothes, everyone doesn't live in a mansion (I realize they didn't in the movie, but I was still hoping they did), alligators don't talk, and frogs don't turn into princes. I see now how unrealistic my expectations were.
And now the good news - Alligators and crocodiles aren't just wandering around all over town. That really eases my mind!
I am very much looking forward to moving and I know I'll adjust. Eventually. :)
